Saturday, June 2, 2012

Drawing a blank


Well you know what I recently found out...? I don’t have shit to talk about, really, I have sat down multiple times with every intention of producing something introspective or dissecting some facet of life that has come to dominate my thoughts, or at least give a good story that we can all laugh at but I have nothing.  No interesting thoughts, no complex opinions, no stories, no tales, no nothing.  It's a little worrying when I think about it.  I have become use to letting by brain and thoughts pour out on the page, using my writing as some sort of therapy.   The action of opening up and letting complete strangers into my thoughts and feeling had become a very fulfilling exchange but now, nothing.  I wonder does this signify that my "counseling" sessions were a success and that you all have helped me reach a point where instead of bottling things up and writing about them, I now let those around me know exactly what I am feeling and thinking at the exact moment that those things are happening?  Lol I doubt it... Maybe it just means that for now my energy is focused in a different direction, maybe I'm just a little more consumed with making things happen and not just describing what is going on.  My life and my thoughts are certainly much different from years, months, and days past but I don't really know what that means.  Good or bad, things are just different now.  

Or maybe I'm just full of shit and being lazy... not taking the time to dig deeper and find new things that will serve to inspire me.  I don't know which one of these conclusions falls closest to the truth but knowing me it is probably some twisted combination of both.  I guess we'll just have to wait and see...

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