Or maybe it's just ME...

The more I learn, the less I know...  It amazes me how we can live life and learn all the lessons it has to teach and still continue to make the same mistakes.  If we are honest with ourselves this life doesn’t offer too many surprises, we all know by now that what we do today will affect what happens tomorrow.  But people like me still think they can beat the system or cheat that proverbial equal sign. "Life won’t catch me, I’m too slick, too smart and way too good at it..." lol but sooner or later there it is again, consequences for previous actions; some of them I can handle and some of them I can’t but they are almost always of my own doing.

I have spoken many times about the narrow path we must walk to navigate through life, I know that any miss-step can lead to enumerable consequences and those consequences can become the bane of your existence.  But with all that said I still go through these fits of self destruction, where I am determined to play the game my way and defy the odds.  Does it work?  HELL NO, it never works. I might slide the first time or the second or even the tenth but it always comes back to bite me, it never fails.  So why do I continue to put myself through these moments of failure and anguish over decisions made under the pretence of invulnerability?  Because I'm stupid... lol That can be the only answer.  What else would explain why a person continues to come up with new and inventive ways to bust their head against the same wall?  

Today has been a perfect example of following the path of proper behavior.  I woke up this morning in such a great mood,  I got up early, fixed my breakfast, took my vitamins, read my "Daily Bread", and read the Bible.  After that I went to the DMV to renew my registration (which surprisingly took less than an hour), then I came home, read a book I've been meaning to finish, and had lunch, all and all it has been a wonderfully productive day so far.  This day has offered no hurdles or pitfalls and I know it’s because I got up and did the right thing from the start.  I’m not saying that doing the right thing will save me from ever experiencing certain obstacles but it does limit that possibility. Now, was it hard to get up this morning and start my day off right?  No, not at all.  Was it difficult to take care of the business I knew needed to handle?  Nope.  Then why do I choose to do otherwise?  What is it that makes me veer off the path?  Other than the fact that I'm stupid, I don’t know, I don’t have an answer to why I choose to do things that I know will have negative consequences.  Maybe its boredom, maybe it’s the devil or maybe it’s just Me...