The Loaded "GUN"

I masturbate before I go on dates... I know you must be asking yourself what the hell is he talking about and what the hell is his problem? lol But before you make your judgment (like you haven't already) let me explain, I am a terribly sexual person and my sexual appetite has been the fuel for many of my less than good decisions. So in an effort to mitigate those foul ups I make sure I masturbate before I go on a date, I promise you it sounds crazy but for me it is the easiest way to make sure I'm as close to level headed as possible before I enter that hormonal battle. I often thought that my "pre-game" ritual was a tad bit odd and out of place but conversations with my male friends have proven different. We have had countless discussions about the tangible affects that occur both physically and mentally when you are walking around brimming with excitement. Men filled with that dumb-dumb juice as I so affectionately refer to it have been responsible for some of the most colossal mistakes made by humans since the beginning of time, just look at Adam and Eve, David and Bathsheba, Bill and Monica, Erica Bennett, Nick Cannon and Mariah Carey (Why is he with her and happy...?) Countless amounts of friendships, marriages, and relationships have crumbled all behind that master motivator that builds up in men like lava in volcanoes. 

Just think of the amount of times that you have seen a couple walking through the mall and wondered why in hell is he with her or how is that his baby's mama? You want to know why and how? It’s simple, when you walk around with a loaded gun someone is eventually going to get shot... Sometimes you hit your intended target and sometimes its an innocent bystander that takes the bullet but one thing is for absolute certain, that gun is going to get fired sooner or later. There are only two ways that I know of to control the damage that will be caused by this inevitable eruption and they are to consistently empty out your ammunition before entering battle and/or place yourself around acceptable targets, that way if anyone gets shot you can be proud of the kill. 

Right now I am reading a book entitled "Every Man's Battle", this book discusses man's plight when it comes to following the laws of sexual purity given by God in the Bible. It recognizes how sexually charged our environment has become and how men are privy to indulge in all that it has to offer. The author acknowledges that this desire to have sex is not only psychological but it is also physiological, men are wired for sex and procreation, it is in our "nature". Therefore to follow the path of sexual decency will be hard, really hard but not impossible; the decency they speak of in the bible is almost absurd by today's standards. A man must not only be faithful to his wife with his anatomy, he must also control the perversion of his thoughts, eyes, language and feelings. Not only is he banned from sex outside of his marriage he is also banned from sex with his self, "masturbation". To say that the content of this book is challenging would be an understatement, for me it is almost offensive... I can’t fathom maintaining the discipline that is required to live sexually pure by God's standards, I have a hard enough time following the one or two rules I have set for myself and I'm pretty lenient to say the least. Maybe one day I will posses what it takes to follow the path of sexual purity, maybe one day I will have the courage to put down my weapon and abandon the shooting gallery, maybe one day... But I doubt if it will be today.