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If it were easier to quit I'm sure I would have done it a long time ago but there is something in me that makes that impossible.  I guess you can call it pride but that really doesn't explain it, its more of a defiance, the same quality that prevents me from giving in is the same thing that gets me into trouble in the first place.  An arrogance that believes that the rules don't apply, not to me... I am the exception, I am forever going to be the one that got away with it, the one that bullied his way through and did it on his own terms.  The fact that the "rules" are consistently enforced and "life's" sentences are constantly carried out never deters me from living under this veil of superiority. How can the rules apply when we're not playing the same game?  "Clearly you are not special..."  But my belief that I am remains unshaken, the facts that are beginning to pile up to prove otherwise don't mean anything, well at least not to me. 

I came to realize a long time ago that the path I have chosen or the one that was chosen for me is going to be a rough one, so for me to have any chance of reaching the finish line I must remain confident that this is the right direction and I will eventually get there.  A few detours, some recalculating, but no stopping...